I’m increasingly realizing how my body recognizes subtle shifts in the energy of a place based on the people within it. I’m guessing it’s a survival skill I learned from growing up in an abusive household, I needed to “read the room” in order to know what to expect/stay safe. Now, after almost 45 years of doing it, reading the room is automatic and I’m seeing how I can either get swept up in the energy of people around me or use the information to create better boundaries. I crave connection with others but it’s not healthy for me to try to connect with certain personalities even though my inner “civilized”, people pleaser suggests I ”should” be able to. I’m balancing the part that needs to be anti-social with the part of me that craves connection.