Updated: Dec 7, 2020
It is only July yet it feels like this past year has already contained lifetimes of learning and experiences. Personally, I have been called to root into my own Truth in a way that I could have never fathomed. I have had to be fluid and responsive to all that life has handed me and I have had to stretch in ways that I wasn't anticipating....
As I type this familiar story I realize the truth is I have been surrendering and stretching my entire life and I'm going to guess that you have been doing the same because that in itself is LIFE!
For some reason it is in the substratum of our awareness that we are not "supposed to" encounter the emotions that accompany intense challenge or struggle on the spiritual path. There's a subconscious belief that we aren't where we are "supposed to be" until we have reached x,y or z with perfect inner equanimity. Or maybe you believe that when you stop feeling fear, anxiety, self doubt or insert your own emotion in the blank, then you have "arrived" at enlightenment. What if you stopped trying to get somewhere on your path and realized you are already where you need to be? What if you became aware of the fact that you are already awake and as enlightened as you could be in this very moment and all you needed to do was continue to pay attention and allow your path to be illuminated? What if the awareness of your experiences and your humanity was enough to unite fully with the Divine?
I just spent the last 8 days on what feels like the most sacred of journeys I have been on so far. I am a student of vedanta; a non-dual philosophy that encourages you to open your eyes and rest in the awareness of what is rather than focusing your awareness on an outcome. I sat in community with about 60 other beautiful humans and together we unpacked our stories and false beliefs, the layers of Avidya (unknowing) that keep us from knowing the True nature of the Self. The goal of this work isn't to "fix" the "bad" parts of ourselves but rather to illuminate the parts we cannot yet see; the parts that are the programming and conditioning that prevent us from expressing as authentically as we can. This is the path of Self Realization. In the Bhagavad Gita we learn "Yoga is the journey of the Self, through the Self, to the Self." Enlightenment is already within you, in order to realize the Self all we need to do is remove all that is not the Self. The triggers that arise, the losses and disappointments that occur along the way are helping us to do that. The triggers point to the parts still needing integration while the losses and disappointments steer us in the direction we are meant to FLOW. We often expect life to be a smooth pothole free road, but you've been in your body long enough to know that is about as unrealistic as expecting the roads in your city to be pothole free. What if you approached life with that realization? With awareness we can begin to navigate and hit less potholes; we may swerve to miss them or take new routes entirely that create more ease. It's not an easy practice, it takes patience, discipline and a deep desire to discover ALL that you are.
My own personal path has been illuminated once again and although I am still uncertain of what the future holds I am unattached to the outcome and focusing on what is right in front of me. I will continue to move forward with fluid responsiveness, leaving no stone left unturned in my own journey of Self discovery as I continue stepping more fully into who I am meant to be.
I have a lot going on this late/summer into fall, many ways for you to embody these practices and find more flow in your life. I'd love to have you join me and we can walk our path side by side for a while :)